I expected that once I got pregnant I would be blissfully
happy all of the time. And I am, but at
the same time I am completely terrified that we will go in for the ultrasound
on 4/22 and there won’t be a baby or a heartbeat and we will be crushed.
I spoke to my mom and Brian about it and they tell me not to
worry everything will be fine, but I just can’t seem to relax. The last week I have been waking up in the
middle of the night and unable to get back to sleep. I know I have no indication something bad is
going to happen, no bleeding or intense cramping and my betas were normal. It just scares me how quickly I could be back
to the longing and sadness of IF.
I just need to keep repeating to myself “today I am pregnant
and I love my baby.”
Still haven’t been feeling much of any symptoms, other than
yesterday I was exhausted, but that is probably due mostly to the fact that I
can’t sleep through the night.
All you can do is take one day at a time, just try to enjoy each day as much as you can :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sure these feelings are normal and hope they dissipate quickly as time goes on! You are in my T&P!
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