Thursday, January 21, 2016

Juliet is 4 Months

I can't believe Juliet is already 4 months!  I feel like I am so occupied with Ellie that Juliet has been growing so much without me noticing!



General 
Juliet is still winning the award for being a super awesome baby.  She is pretty predictable about when she will cry now - mostly she is either hungry or wants to be picked up and carried around.  She loves to be held facing out and hates being alone when she is awake. She is pretty much bald right now with a very thin/short layer of fuzz that looks to be brown but has a reddish tinge if she is in the right light.  Her eyes are still newborn grey/blue color, but I am thinking they will be brown like her sisters.  I have been calling her my little squish lately because she has some awesome baby chub going on.    

Feeding/Sleeping
Her bedtime keeps creeping earlier.  Right now she usually goes down around 7:30 pm.  I start to put Ellie down around 6:50 and am usually done by 7:20 pm then it is usually time to put Juliet down.  I nurse her and she falls asleep pretty easily.  She is still swaddled and sleeps in a rock n play but I think I am going to start transitioning her to the Merlin sleep suit and her crib this weekend.  I have been avoiding it the past few weeks because I have been working full weeks at work and I want to start on a week where I am back to my old schedule.  Juliet has been getting squirmier lately so I think it is time to take her out of the swaddle.  I am a bit nervous because she sleeps well right now, but hopefully the transition will go ok. 

Most nights Juliet goes down around 7:30-7:45 pm and wakes up once at night around 1:30am.  She has been doing this for the past week, before that she was sleeping through until about 5:30 am.  I am hoping the middle of the night wake up is just a phase and she will go back to sleeping through, but I have been really lucky with sleep so far so I really can't complain much.  With the two kids though usually one is up each night - Ellie has had a cough lately so she might wake up at 11 pm and need some more water or some soothing.  So sleep isn't super great for me but better than most folks with a 4 month old I think.   

No real nap schedule yet - she mostly sleeps in the bouncer still, but I am going to try to start putting her down for naps once she is in her crib and once patterns start to emerge. 

Work

I have been back at work for a month now and it is going well.  Most weeks I work 3 days a week but I worked two full weeks the first two weeks of January because I am an accountant and it is year end.  Working 3 days a week is perfect for me, but working 5 days is really tough.  It has also been tough in the mornings getting ready for work because most mornings Brian leaves the house at like 5:15 am so I need to get myself and 2 kids ready for the day.  I end up getting up around 5:30 am to pump and shower before they get up.  

2 Under 2 
I am not sure if it is all the transitions that Ellie has had in her life or if it is just being 2, but Ellie is having a bit of a rough time right now.  She has been throwing lots of tantrums and crying if she doesn't get her way (example: When we go downstairs in the morning at like 6 am she will ask for an M&M and when I say no she has a fit).  She is very attached to me still and I think that is probably because I started back at work and because Juliet takes a lot of my time now.  If I am around she usually only wants me to do things for her.  So I end up pretty much having to put both girls to bed every night because Ellie wants nothing to do with Brian doing it - which is tough because he would like to help out it is just easier on everyone if I do it.  Juliet also doesn't like to be away from her food source so poor Brian has to deal with screaming kids a lot.  

Body/Recovery
I am about 7 lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight.  I pretty much stopped going to the gym over the past month because 1) we have been moving back into our house which has taken up a lot of time 2) I keep dropping weight on my own 3) Now that I am back at work I don't feel the need for as much "me along time."  I am sure it will catch up with me soon because I haven't been eating very well lately.  

House Update
We moved back into our house!  It was CRAZY!  We moved back in a few days before Christmas so having to move all our stuff (we had brought so much more stuff over to my mom's house than I had ever imagined) plus getting ready for Christmas, plus having 2 small children equaled a very busy Christmas week (not to mention I was back at work).  But we survived and we are in and it is great.  We still have workers coming in and out and such every day but at least we are in.  There are still a lot of things that need to be completed, but it is 96% complete at this point.  They will need to paint it in the spring because it is too cold now, but the outside doesn't look horrible because the clapboard is light grey - so it sort of looks like a light grey and white house. 

 I am so in love with our house.  I always knew it had great bones/potential/character and now it just blows my mind that I get to live there.  

I guess we got an "illegal" tub for MA because the plumbing inspector would not approve it, so we had to take the tub out, put it in my mom's garage and will have to bring it back in once the inspection is complete, nuts!  I can't wait for it to be installed because I am dreaming about taking a bath in it on a wintry night with a glass of wine in my hand.  Here is said tub:
Here is the kitchen:

We have a lot of decorating and such to go but that will be done slowly over the next year I would say. 

More pics of the ladies:



Monday, January 4, 2016

A Post for Me!

I realized looking at my recent posts that they are all about my girls (nothing wrong with that) but I figured it was time for a post just about me.  

My life has been full of beautiful chaos lately.  The Tuesday before Christmas we moved back into our house.  I had no idea how much crap we had accumulated at my mom's house until I tried to pack it up and move it back.  I was happy to be moving back but with Brian's hurt knee it was a lot of work packing up the car and unpacking it up.  My mom is a saint for dealing with all of the stuff we had at her house.  Being in our house for Christmas was awesome, even though we couldn't find anything!  We had packed all of our belongings (that we didn't move to my mom's) into 2-3 rooms at our house and we are still going through the process of unpacking boxes and figuring out where things go.  We still have people in our house daily to continue to finish it up (electrical work, outside work, etc) but it is 92% complete and I love it.  I won't say it was worth it, but I love it. There is still a ton of work we have to do to the house (our backyard is currently a slopey muddy mess, our closet has no shelves or poles) but we are through the worst of it. 

2015 was a crazy year for sure:

  • Planning our renovation
  • Finding out we were pregnant
  • Starting the renovation/moving in with my mom
  • Having Juliet
All good things but you can see how the crazy could add up.  I am really hoping 2016 is a bit more calm. 

 Which leads me to something I wasn't sure I was going to share on here but here it goes anyway.  For the past few days I have felt a bit nauseous, it was that low sour tummy feeling that sits with you for a while but can't really be tied to anything.  When it didn't go away I thought to myself "I know this feeling, this is pregnancy nausea." Now before you freak out, I am not pregnant.  I have taken 2 tests and they were both negative.  I still feel off but I am thinking it is some sort of bug that isn't full blown.  The reason I am sharing this is because it was the first time in my life I have taken a pregnancy test and actually hoped it was negative.  It was such a strange feeling to do such a 180.  I mean this is a blog that started out as a place for me to deal with infertility, right?  I feel like such a traitor saying I wanted the test to be negative.  When I took the first test I just remember hoping it would be negative and then hating myself for thinking that, but how could I not?  I am so very grateful for our two girls and I am not completely closed to having a third but not now, nope, not now.  The thought of being pregnant terrified me for the first time ever.  I think the main reason it terrified me is because I see how much having Juliet has impacted my time with Ellie and I don't want anything to take any more time away from my girls.  I am one of those people who enjoy being pregnant, but I feel like I have already given so much of my body over the past 2 years that I am just not in a place to have it "taken over" again.  


So 2016 hopefully the year of calm.  We have spent so much money in 2015 with the renovation that I would like to pay everything off and just see where we are financially.  I know we need a new car and I would love to take a family vacation but I am just nervous about spending more money at this time.  I am such a squirreler when it comes to money and Brian is more of a spender and this is pretty much where any fighting comes from in our relationship.  I am also a little nervous about my job this year because my company is being acquired in July and they probably won't need all of us finance folks!  I have been at my company for almost 6 years and I while I wouldn't mind a change, it makes me nervous that I won't be able to find anything as flexible as I have now with working part time.  

I had started going to the gym back about a month ago but with the craziness of the house I stopped going.  I am kind of ok with it for the moment because it was my "me time" but now that I am back at work I already have time on my own.  I also seem to still be losing weight without working out so I think the gym would be overkill at the moment.  The same thing happened with Ellie - I gained about 20 lbs with the pregnancy then lost that plus another 10 lbs after I had her from breastfeeding.  So I started 10 lbs less when I got pregnant with Juliet and now I am about 6 lbs under my pre-Juliet weight.  I know it will level off during the next year though so I am not running out to buy new clothes just yet.  

So enough about me :)  who really wants a post with no pictures so here are some cute ones of the girls!

My little squishy one dressed up for Christmas

 Ellie in her Christmas dress
This is what happens when you try to get a dog, an infant and a toddler to look in the same direction


 Juliet is such a smiler!
 Everyone joining in for tummy time!

 Ellie inside one of her Christmas gifts from Granny and Grandpa
 I can only get her to keep a bow in her hair for about 2 minutes!